just to say something

I haven't been here in awhile. I just haven't had anything super duper to say. However, I was looking around at others blogs and wanted some people to update (natalie) and felt i couldn't ask someone to update if i wasn't willing to do the same.

I always post things that bug or drive me nuts. I think this time I will post something about things I like or that i am thankful for.

I am really glad that no one at my current job (u of u) is aware of my blog. They don't need to be apart of this part of my life.

I am super happy that I have such great sisters that will and do help me through anything. I always appreciate it, even when it is not precisely how I wanted it done. I have issues I am working on them.

I like co-workers who do their job and help out when you can't fully do your job by yourself. It is nice to know that others are aware of what you are going through.

That is all that i have to say....I have one post in progress but I don't think I will finish it until I am done serving at Porcupine. I need time to collect info.

Things people ask me while at work

1. What is the thing you like least about this job?
Why it bugs...
lets focus on the positive...not the negative
You don't want to know because sometimes it is you and the things you say
Honest answer when people don't say please or thank you....I hate to be told/barked at

2. How long are you here? 12 hrs. Wow I don't think I could do that....
I want to respond,you would be able to if you knew you didn't have to come back for 4 days and really the time just flies because I rarely get to sit....it isn't like the office...oh no sister

or after that they say

3. Where did you sleep? or Did you sleep as badly as I did? No I didn't sleep at all....I am at work.....seriously I never want any contact with the place that these people work...what gets done

4. How many other patients do you have?
Um seriously just you I sit and watch TV when I am not in the room with you, that is why sometimes I can't be with you right away, you know I can't come in until it is commercial break.
Seriously I have a lot of other patients....sometimes I just don't have Patience.

REALLY I LIKE MY JOB AND I AM BEGINNING TO REALLY LOVE HELPING PEOPLE. I am not sick...so I don't love it all the time...it can be really hard and tiring.

Nice cars, Old women and BAD Driving Skills

So the other day while on my way to meet some friends for lunch, I had two older ladies almost hit me, or should I say run into my car.

The first was pulling out into the street from my place of residence. There is construction going so there is only one lane in the south bond traffic, which is the way that I was going. I had to wait for the light since it was a left hand turn. I went after it turned green and then out of my peripheral vision I see a Lexus cruising toward me. I slam on the brakes. AWWW Shit. She totally ran a read light, seems that getting to walmart quickly is worth almost hurting someone livelihood other than theirs. I honked and then proceeded on my way. I was pissed. Funny thing we were going to the same place. I honked at her as I passed her in the parking lot and then I gave her the bird. If she had actually dared to get out of her car I would have told her how responsible she had just been.

The second was an older lady in a BMW wagon. Totally cut me off trying to get onto the freeway. She moved over into my lane, almost grabbing my bumper as she did this, just outside of the intersection.

Seriously, I know we all want to get somewhere, but for crying out loud cars cause damage. They are made of metal, they hurt, and it is expensive.

What I want to know is if it is just a coincidence that they were both older women with nice cars or if it is in fact because these women are more reckless then needs be. Do they reason that they car drive with little skill or awareness since they have a lot of money and can pay for any damages (human or car)? Or is it that they just could give a shit about anyone else? Or maybe it is just that they might have made it this far through life without much strife and feel that they are impervious to bad things (I think this one pushes it...but I can not remember my exact thoughts of that morning.)

Seriously what do you all think?

By the way I did not name this blog Bombastic Opinions for nothing...if you do not like it do not read it. I am still a nice person even though I do not always think nice thoughts. Come back tomorrow for my feelings on society.

AAHHH work

So for those of you who know me. I have been working (literally) quite hard at getting into nursing school to become a nurse. I took another big step recently. I accepted a job at the University Hospital in SLC. They just started their own program that they will pay for if you commit to working for them for at least 3 years. *&^% Yeah. I don't want to pay for &*(0.

I have been working there for 2 months. I have completed my training. It only took 5.3 weeks. Yikes. Hell yeah. I have been on my own for a few weeks. A couple of grave weeks and one day week.

To be honest with you I thought that I might be in the wrong place. I had some serious doubts about what I have been working toward. I didn't think I could do it. Not one bit.

I have made myself commit to at least six months of doing this. I think you need at least that with any job. You are still learning the first few months how to do it all, then you are getting your routine set, and then you are getting good at it. So I have until December to make it official.

So the week that I thought I was in the wrong place was just a busy week. One shift I didn't get to sit down and eat at all. I had some coffee and fruit snacks half way through my 12 hours. I couldn't think and made no sense at all when talking to patients. I was having night mares about vital signs. AAHHH it was bad.

BUT.... I think this might just be what day shifts are like. Pure shit. I don't like them. I want to work only nights....graves rock hard.

This last week was the best I have had...don't confuse this with me thinking it will be the best ever. There will be more shitty weeks with just as many good/great weeks. Lets hope the good/great out weigh the shit.

I even had a patient shit on me. Seriously. Most terrifying experience ever but definitely made me realize that I am in the right place. I can handle it. I can. Yeah. I may be nervous as you can be....but I can do it.

Since this is so long I will post some amazing stories later on. They are great.

to clarify a little about talking about # 2

Hey so that you all know and are not confused. I don't talk about poo with strangers. I don't say to the person next to me, "WOW that was the biggest greenest poop I ever had .....and oowwee the smell."
NO generally it is with people that I know, mostly people that I work with, and some close friends who I know have the same interest or pooing abilities that I have.

I rarely if ever talk about the color, the viscosity, or the smell. I might, however, done this at one time or another if it was quite remarkable. I do however talk about the frequency of my poos, the schedule that I am on for poos, and the greatness of the poo if it is noteworthy.

I will tell you how this talking of poo began. I was in the hospital once for a few days (15). I had a hard time having a BM there. In fact I went 5 days with out a BM. It was the most painful experience ever, I wanted to die. I was crying because there was nothing I could do. Suppositories were the only thing that worked. EMBARRASSING. I made a promise to myself to never let that happen again. When I am on pain pills I try to get off them quick...part of the problem. Since that time I count my poos. I have quite a few in a day. Some are shocked but it is true. I poo a lot. 3-5. yes 3-5 times a day. not a week a day.

If I get off schedule I know it. I think about it. I think that more people should be as aware of things like this. If you know what it looks like or the frequency of it. You will be able to determine a lot about your body if something starts to go wrong. Doesn't your doc ask about poo and urine when you visit if you have a prob?

Poo is alright. I try not to talk about it with strangers. Just kidding I don't unless they bring it up. customers at tables at ppine have done this. If they bring it up it is fair game.

Thank you all for your input. I will try to keep me poo knowledge to those who appreciate it. You know who you are. Most importantly I know who you are.

hmmm normal

so I just want to pose a question to everyone out there in blog land. Poo

Do you think it is normal or abnormal to talk about it?

I wan to know your opinion.

Cole, Kris, and I in Cali (Pismo Beach style)